I just need to let this one out because I might explode if I don't tell someone about this in 5 minutes.

I'm very much proud of myself right now, but at the same time I feel so much emotions I creep myself out. Proud, because I lasted almost a night with this certain person without feeling anything (read: crush) for that person. So much emotions, because one, just when I managed to avoid having complicated feelings for the person, I notice unusual things about that person (read: things that make me flail inside). My friends, too. Two, because of this observation I feel like I've wasted my time crushing on the person a long time ago. I should've just fell for the person now. Three, I feel like thinking about the first two unusual observations is stupid, because I should be thinking about academic-related things.

Okay that may be really random, but I managed to lighten up a bit.